Well that's ballsy!

As mentioned in a previous post, my sister in laws wedding is July 25 th. My goal is to be below 200. Doing my best calculations possible, I will be hovering, give or take right around that. When I was at that weight before I was a size 18.

So, getting excited for the big event, I am already looking at dresses. I found one that I fell in love with that is on clearance at JCPenney. Here is the link:

http://www4.jcpenney.com/jcp/X6.aspx?DeptID=50434&CatID=66582&GrpTyp=PRD&ItemID=1511a14&attrtype=&attrvalue=&CMID=50434%7c50444%7c66582&Fltr=&Srt=&QL=F&IND=26&CmCatId=504345044466582

Please let me know what you think. I love purple & black. And its not a formal wedding, so I think the dress will be great, as well as slimming with the waist line.

I've been eye-ing it for awhile, and today when looking for it I got scared when I couldn't find it, but I eventually did. This told me that I just need to buy it, so I did.

As long as I keep up the good work, which I really do anticipate, I think the dress will fit fine. I am not worried about it being too small when the date arrives. If for some reason it is too big then I get to buy another smaller dress. And who wouldn't want to do that???

Hmmmm....That's strange!

My husband text messaged me yesterday afternoon and asked me if I wanted to go out for mexican food last night. How can I say no? I looooooooove Mexican Food. Infact he mustv'e been reading my mind, because just the day before I had asked my friend Sasha if she was up for Mexican food next Saturday. So, I figure I have a reason to celebrate with losing my first 20 lbs and all, so of course we went!

I had the tortilla chips they bring out as an appetizer and ordered their cheese sauce. I also had a Raspberry Margarita ( been AGES since I've had one - at least a year if not more). then for dinner I had a Chimichanga. I just realized that they didnt bring me the rice I asked for but that's ok. Probably a blessing in disguise. It was absolutely DELICIOUS. We were both so stuffed. I knew I would be paying for it today.

So this morning I got up and made breakfast for us. We had turkey sausage links and oatmeal whole grain pancakes. When my husband got up, and before we ate I weighed myself.

The scale said 250 lbs.

That is a 2 lb loss.

HUH?????

After gorging myself on Mexican food and having a Margarita?

Let's try that again.

So, I hop on again and the scale still says 250 lbs.

So I get off of it and decide to agree with it.

So, I've decided I should eat Mexican Food more often!

( I wish!)

Twenty Pounds!

Today, I got on the scale this morning as I was still waking up, and saw to my amazement that I have lost 20 pounds. I had to get off the scale and back on a few more times for me to believe it. So it is official.

I immediately afterwards went to Jazzercise class. I am now home, and will do a workout dvd at home. We are having Mexican food tonight - so I will work it off before I out it on! HA!
To treat my self I also bought a new workout top and bottoms. I figure a new outfit every 20 lbs. is an excellent reward, don't you?

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Muffin Top Pride!

I started my weight loss journey at a relatively snug fitting size 24 pant. I had a "clothing goal" ( which I totally forgot to mention in my last blog) of a size 22 pair of black jeans.

So, just out of curiosity, and expecting to be totally dissapointed, I tried them on before I went to work. And they fit!

Now granted, they are a little uncomfortable, and I have a muffin top, BUT THEY FIT!

Today I love my muffin top!

GOALS

It is good to have goals. I think it is more important to set yourself SMALLER goals that will make getting to the larger goal quite easier. While my ultimate weight loss goal is to get to 160 lbs, there is NO WAY that can be my only goal. It is far off, and I would get too discouraged. So I have set myself some smaller goals that I would like to share with you.

Our first major event that is coming up is going to visit the inlaws in Virginia over Easter. Ive gained a few pounds since they saw me, so they may not notice a weight loss, and thats fine. But my own personal goal would be to 235 lbs. I got married in August 2006 at 235 lbs, so I know my wedding ring will fit if I can be that weight again. I havent worn my weding ring because of that, in almost 2 years. So, that is only another 18 lb lost, and have almost 2 months to do so.

Next Goal: VACATION! This is over Memorial weekend. We are going to the Rocky Mountain area. Should be a wonderful time! I would like to be at 225-220lbs. I dont have an exact number for this one, just a range. I think again it is totally do-able sinceI will have over a month inbetween goals.

Thrd goal: my sister-in-laws wedding. Yep! Back to Virginia on July 24th! I will have 2 months for this next goal. Ideally, I would like to be under 200lbs. I dont care if it is 199.9 lbs. As long as I am under ...or honestly if it is close it will be ok ( but Shhhh! We wont tell my body that!).

So , as these next few events come up I will share with you what the results are , and I will probably add some new goals after that as well...just to make this wonderful journey just a little more interesting.

Stuck at home!

Tuesdays are my normal day off from work. At times, I will work overtime if it is available, but not today. Today I am stuck at home.

Today I am spending my day "waiting". Waiting on FedEx because I have to sign for a package, waiting on UPS for the same reason. Things we ordered decided to all come on the same day! Waiting for the insurance adjuster and roof guy to get here in about another hour ( which reminds me, I should change. I dont think wearing pj pants that are black with turqoise flowers and a rust colored t-shirt really go together!). Lets not forget waiting for the mail.

I should have gotten up earlier than what I did this morning ( but it felt goooood to get a couple hours extra sleep) and gone to Jazzercise. Jazzercise kicked my butt last night. But my fault for taking Hoodia before I went. I was so out of breath you woulda thought I was having an asthma attack. So of course the logical thing to do is go back for more, right? I did about a half hour dvd workout this afternoon, then the doorbell rang ( that would have been FedEx) and never got back into it. I figure I will get on the treadmill while my hubby is finishing the brakes on my Jeep this evening.

Weighed myself this morning...dare I say I have now lost 19 lbs ? YAY!

Moving along.....

So....
The scale finally moved down 2 lbs. YAY!!!! So now I have lost 18lbs. It's about FRIGGIN' time!!!!

I really needed something to get things moving. I remembered, about 80 lbs and 5 years ago, that I used to go to Jazzercise. So, last Tuesday, I took myself in and joined. WOW. I sweated like a pig. I went back for more on Wednesday and Thursday. Its definitely not the easiest thing for a now 254 lb woman, with my fat flying everywhere. But it will help, thats for sure. I'll be back again tomorrow, and maybe twice on Tuesday :)

The other thing I did was get some Hoodia Slimquick. I needed something to help speed up the metabolism, and this seems to be doing the trick. I got these on Friday. Since Friday, is when the numbers on the scale have been moving down. After 15 days of the scale not moving, I was willing to try anything if I thought I had a chance of moving the scale. It did. I'm happy.

Hope everyone had a nice Valentine's Day. My husband and I went out to Outback Steakhouse. One of his favorites. I was relatively good. I had French Onion Soup - only ate half of it, had a salad with Fat Free French dressing. My entree was multi grain wild rice with grilled chicken and 5 grilled shrimp. Absolutely yummy! Then I cheated with what was supposed to be a small kids sundae....HA! We ordered a sundae for $1.99 each on the "Under 10" menu...this thing was HUGE!...But I ate 75% of it anyway! It was all worth it when I got on the scale this morning weighing 2 lbs less. Though I wont make a habit of it!

HELP!!

HELP ME!!!!
I am stuck. I am not losing. I have been the same weight for 10 days!!!!
I am discouraged :(
I need motivation & words of wisdom!!!!

UGH!!!!! Those damn rolls!

So....last Friday I went out to O'Charleys with my husband. For those of you who dont know, it's a family restauraunt with really good food.

My intention was to order a salad, which I did. It was a huge grilled chicken salad with fat free honey mustard dressing. It was so big, I automatically asked the server for a to-go box so I could have the other half for lunch the next day.

But, where the trouble started was when they brought out the rolls. I forgot about the rolls. The butter is this cinnamon concoction that is just sooooooo delicious. I had 4.

Yeah, sooooo NOT fat free, guilt free or free of ANYTHING.

This set me back. I was down 16 lbs before this fateful day, then it was 14 lbs. Finally now, I am back at 16 lbs.

I am really longing for that 17 lbs loss, I need to see some movement on the scale - and not in the wrong direction! I cant say that I hit a plateau, I HAVE lost, but I just lost what I already lost!

So frustrating.

Can you remove a pound or two of lard while you are back there?

Today I went to the doctors office to have what was my third mole removed in my lifetime thus far.

My first one was when I was 18, on my back. I remember very little except that the shot to numb it hurt like hell. I do remember that my brother had a mole removed the same time ( perhaps there was a "remove one mole, get one removed free" special?) his was on the side of his leg by his knee. Since he had to walk and this stretched the skin, he ended up popping his stitches open later that night. Sucked to be him.

My second mole was five years ago, and as far as its location, I will just say, I was planning on having it removed when I gave birth. Since giving birth never happened, and the mole was beginning to look like a deformed third nipple, I thought it best to get it sliced. My doctor did this in his office, and was pretty painless. Miraculously, it healed up rather nicely.

Today I had my third abnormal mole removed. It again was on my lower middle back. I was seriously hoping my doc would slice off a pound or two of my attractive back fat while he had the knife in hand, but no such luck. The shot didnt hurt as much as I had remembered from 20 years ago, and I felt only a slight pain like a paper cut as he was cutting. The first stitch was a little painful. But there were only 3 stitches, so I managed to survive through it all.

To me the anticipation of the whole thing is much worse than the procedure. Im not too worried about if its cancerous or not. Skin cancer is not in my family, and none of the other moles have been cancerous, and if that deformed third nipple of mine came back ok, chances are pretty good this one will too.

Fred & Lincoln

These are my beautiful doggies, Fred and Lincoln. They are both Basset Hounds. Fred is the red and white one , he is older and he is 15 months. Lincoln is the tri-colored. We just got him in November. He is 4 months. They are both alot of fun.

a smile

Fat runs in our family. I suppose it could be worse. You can get rid of fat, having the willpower to do so. Unless of course making excuses runs in the family, too.

My brother, who is 4 years younger than me was heavy. I would say he at his heaviest was somewhere in the 300s, I dont know his exact starting weight. But his doctor prescribed him a diet drug, and he got the weight off. He isnt on them anymore, has been off of them for awhile actually, and he has maintained his new skinny weight. I do not know what that is either. But I do know he can fit in a size Large now, when he started out at wearing 3x's and 4x's. He works out and watches what he eats too.

In his adult life, he has been pretty much a man of little words. and out of everyone in the family, I am the one who he sees fit to talk to the most. I dont know why that is, perhaps situations in our upbringing, but there is no point in trying to figure it out, because some things just cant be explained.

I saw my brother this past Christmas when he came to visit. He lives about 3 hours west of me. I was then at my heaviest. He knows that i am on this weight loss journey, and has been supportive in his own special Jason way.

After we got off the phone yesterday, I realized I forgot to tell him that I have lost 16 lbs, so I sent him a text letting him know. Rarely does he respond to text messages, but I got back "That's good Keep it up." He gave me a compliment.

That made me smile.